The other day I felt like I needed to do something that I didn’t want to do.

I’m not talking about doing the laundry or taking out the trash. No, I felt that I needed to apologize to someone that I hadn’t seen in years for something I had said in the past.

My inner dialogue sounded something like this, “It was forever ago! I am sure they don’t even remember! If someone said something about me, I wouldn’t care, so they probably don’t either!”

My biggest reason for not wanted to talk to that person was, what would they say back? Especially if they didn’t even know I had said anything in the first place!

And let me say…what I had said was not even that bad! It was petty! I kept pushing the thought away and making excuses but it kept coming back (don’t you hate when that happens). Around the 3rd time I felt the need to apologize, I knew what I had to do but I rrrrrreally did NOT want to.

I pray all the time for God to guide me. To help me see my calling for His kingdom. To make me more like Him. This was Him answering that prayer. It wasn’t the first time and I know it wont be the last but it was a tidbit. I had too much pride in my heart to offer a simple apology and that was not like Him at all.

So, reluctantly, I apologized. I wish I could tell y’all I did it gladly because I knew God wanted me to but I am still a work in progress.

I also wish I could tell you that I felt amazing afterwards, but I didn’t. However, I did see that pride is something that I need to fight daily in my heart. I don’t think that that person felt that I needed to apologize to them (and they didn’t respond in a mean way either). God was simply opening my eyes on a way that I need to work to be more like Him.